You're welcome, dear. We'll always be here for you, and we'll always stand by you, no matter what.

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I William. ^_^

Thanks so much. You're a very dear friend

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I'm intolerant of those who are intolerant.

Thanks! ^^

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I William. ^_^

Cheska... I hope your doing okay...
this whole situation sounds like a real mind f**k.
And I wish I could offer you some advice, but I don't know what your personal life with him is like...so I'm really sorry I can't help show you which road to go down. Just that, in the end, your happiness should be the number one priority.

please take care Cheska! My thoughts are with you.

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"BIG BLUE RUBBER D!CKS FOR EVERYONE!! THE PEOPLE DEMAND RUBBER D!CKS!!!!"
~ Stifler

If there's anything you need or if there's anything I can do to help you only have to ask and I'll do whatever I can. I know you'd do the same for me.

I'm sorry for being so vague. I know that makes offering advice really hard. But all I need is support, which you and others are giving plenty of And that makes me feel so good inside despite everything.

The first time in my life yesterday, I had a panic attack. The only reason I knew it was a panic attack is because anxiety disorders run in my family and my dad used toget them. It matched what he described perfectly. It was almost like when I had that allergic reaction at that restaurant. I started getting lightheaded, and it felt like I couldn't breathe or get enough air... pulse racing. I was scared I might be dying, but I just kept reassuring myself it was only a panic attack, and when I got home, I researched the symptoms. They matched, and then it subsided.

Honestly, the past week, I've been in really bad shape. My anxiety has been up, along with my blood pressure, and I haven't been able to eat or sleep almost at all. I've lost almost 5 pounds the last week alone just because I can't seem to eat. I hate being unhealthy. Unfortunately, I think it's taking its toll on my immune system and I've come down with something awful. I'm terribly congested, I have a really sore throat, and I keep coughing, which hurts a lot. There's some sort of sickness going on. I hope I can get in to see the doctor today. I want to take care of myself, but sometimes I just can't. I know I only got sick because of the way the week has been on my body and mind.

Thanks for being here, Ruthie. You are one of my best friends on the planet.

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I'm intolerant of those who are intolerant.

I would definitely do the same for you, but shy of what you're doing now, there's nothing else really to be done. I love you bunches! Thank you so much for everything.

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I'm intolerant of those who are intolerant.

I love you too, and so do all your other friends, don't forget that!

Oh Cheska... you don't sound well at all.
That's terrible about the panic attack. Do you mind if I ask where you had the panic attack? I hope it didn't happen in a place which would have been hazardous. I wish I could organize your daily life, and although I can't, I pray that you don't get overworked or anything. Anything that can keep the stress down.
And eating and sleeping...I don't know what to recommend. Just that you get a good dosage of each. You need both to function, and you're probably the healthiest person I know, so this must be awful for you.
Please take care, did you get to go to the doctor??
You're such an amazing friend too Ches~! I think it's so cool that you are one of my most greatest friends, even though we havn't met in reality. :3

On a totally different note, I've been watching this film on YouTube recently, it's a Russian film of "The Little Mermaid". And ya know how much we Russia and mermaids! XD
Anyway, this is a music video someone did, but I gotta warn you, it's very sad, with a sad song. So please don't watch it if it makes you sad, ok??

Take care Cheska and please keep us updated on how you are. We're all worried about you~~ :S

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"BIG BLUE RUBBER D!CKS FOR EVERYONE!! THE PEOPLE DEMAND RUBBER D!CKS!!!!"
~ Stifler